Even though I had surgery not long ago which made the pelvic pain manageable I am still in pain. I go to physical therapy every other week and it has helped me a lot but it is not enough. I am slowly coming to terms with accepting this and I may have to live with chronic pain for the rest of my life. I certainly am not going to consider another surgery right now being that the last one was six month ago.
In addition, I get really bad migraines when the pain intensifies, luckily these have been far apart recently. My anxiety level has been pretty high and I am having difficulties with it and it frustrates me beyond words can express. Some times I have no control of it, I could wake up in the morning with a dreaded feeling and anxiousness for no reason. Of course there is the hormone imbalance, stress of IF, work and the chronic pain at the root cause of it.
I need counseling ASAP. I am looking for a therapist who specializes in coping with chronic pain and also anxiety. I prefer a woman, I would think only a woman can understand the emotional turmoil that is created by hormonal imbalance and infertility. I am having difficult identifying such person in my area. I feel like I am slowly sinking in unnecessary worry, fear that is accompanied with chronic pain and it needs to be addressed.
Yucky! All of this is so hard. I'm sorry. Being sick and in pain for long periods of time takes such a toll on your spirit. I've been in counseling many times, some therapists have been great, others less so, and one was downright nasty. I wish you luck in finding someone great! :) And I hope that you find some relief soon!
ReplyDeleteAwe sweetie, I hate this. My prayer will be that you find a therapist who can help heal your mind, body and spirit.
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