Last Friday I walk up with a pressure headache and just brushed it off and went to work. I could barely concentrate at work the first hour or so. I was anxious and edgy and didn't understand what could have triggered this. I have anxiety issues as I have said before which appear from no where sometimes. So Friday night DH wanted to go out to dinner and I was reluctant but said Ok. I was already hungry on top of the headache and anxiety. Any how I had a huge panic attack in the restaurant and just wanted to dye right there. It was the most terrible feeling ever. Usually I would sit and let it pass but this time I just couldn't breath. At that point we already have ordered our food and waiting. I told DH that I don't feel well and I will wait for him in the car and stormed off. I felt so bad but I just couldn't help it. I walked around while DH waited for the food. Once we got home all was fine.
Today the same thing, I managed the weekend pretty well except for some fatigue. I had a relaxing massage and acupuncture session on Saturday. When I walk up this morning I had a faint headache some IBS symptoms and I was also hungry. I took my T.3 Med and drove to work but my eye sight was blurrier than usual and I had the same pressure headache. I left work as soon as I got in and went home. I don't know how to deal with this overwhelming feeling. It also sometimes happens when I am in a large meeting, movie theatres etc.. Recently I try to avoid big meetings at work but avoiding it is not going to help. I don't know how to deal with this issue. It is usually at its worse right after and before AF. It is part of the PMS package that gets delivered at my door step on a monthly bases. I thought the vitamins, T.3 are helping me deal with this better but doesn't look like it. What is bad is this experience is new all the time and I don't learn from the last one. It just catches me off guard. I do not want to be on medication for this. I just need to learn how to deal with it but if I haven't figured it out the last 15 plus years so when and how do I learn coping mechanism? It hasn't been this bad before but now seem to be more often and more intense.
This afternoon I am feeling some cramps so AF is definitely on her way. The cramps have also been starting earlier the last couple of month. Today is only CD19. I can't wait for Menopause to hit and take me out of this misery. I am sure it will bring its own issues but I have had enough of this one.
Awe, hey there! Thanks for joining on to my blog. I'll have to catch up yours soon. I love meeting new people and sharing lives. Looks like a bummer time in the cycle for both of us so I raise a toast to u. Look forward to being blog friends!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about the anxiety issues :(. I used to have really bad anxiety when I was working at my extremely stressful job. I couldn't do IF, family drama AND a stressful job, it was just too much. I did acupuncture for stress, which really helped, but the effects didn't last longer than a couple of days. I did deep breathing, meditation, herbal stress remedies, etc.
ReplyDeleteThere is definitely a hormonal aspect to anxiety, and I think finally getting my hormones more balanced has helped.
I'm really sorry you're feeling so crappy right now, and that AF is on her way. Sometimes all you can do is put on some relaxing music, get a good book or magazine and run a hot bath.
Hope you feel better soon!
Ooh, seriously understand. My cycle ALWAYS causes me migraines. Right when I'm supposed to be doing the baby dance... I'm bent over the toilet and holding my head in my hands. SO romantic! Haha. I had some real serious panic attacks while on Clomid. I can't imagine living with that all the time. Hope you can find a good solution and feel better soon!
ReplyDeleteI suspect that there is an underlying issue of a hormonal imbalance that is causing you all this anxiety and strange cycle patterns. I know for a fact that since my dr's been balancing my hormones out with his meds, my mood and my cycle/pain has gotten a LOT better. I suggest you try and squeeze more acupuncture for your stress, and perhaps try vitex. I hear vitex is a very good herbal supplement for balancing your hormones. I hope you find some solutions Rachel. Very sorry that you're going through such a rough patch. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteThank You guys for your suggestions. It means a lot.
ReplyDeleteZengirl yep I am looking in to an Acupuncturist close to home that deals with Anxiety too.
Awaiting: Welcome to my blog. Reading your blog I feel like you are a positive and bubbly person. Its great that is able to stay positive while dealing with IF.