I am anticipating my surgery scheduled for July. However the fear is slowly overtaking me. Its not so much of the actual surgery (that worries me too) but it is the thoughts that
What if there is Endometriosis everywhere
What if the Laparoscopy is not enough and I have to go back for Laparotomy
What if I lose my ovaries, tubes, etc in the process
What if the pain doesn't go away after surgery
What if some of the adhesions can't be removed
This thoughts drive me crazy but my mind have a legitimate reason to think this way.
My last surgery over 2 years ago did not solve my pain issue. From having intense pain around my period and some mild pain after surgery it became a constant numbing pain. Surgery did help in decreasing the bleeding and the sever cramps during my period. It didn't help me get pregnant or help with the pain. Even though I am going to one of the best Dr. for this kind of issues I am still scared out of my mind.
I have to work on creating some positive thoughts over the remaining few weeks.