Alive and kicking

1. My computer is having so many issues and I haven't been able to use it much and the motivation for blogging is not there.  Truthful, I really don't have anything interesting to say.  Our life is the same routine which is fine but not so much fun :)

2. We are enjoying summer, as much as my physical well being allows it.  There are days I prefer to just stay home curled up on my sofa nursing my pain.  My little girl is growing up so fast and she is just so adorable and precious.  She will be turning 4 next month and she talking a lot.  She is constantly asking questions and making me laugh.   She will be going to daycare for 2days/wk ones summer is done.   I am happy that she will spend time with her age group but I will have to do the drop off/pick up and there are day where my pain level is through the roof and driving becomes challenging so I am a little worried.

3.  Health wise I went to see the GYN that I saw last year.  The first time I went to see him was to determine if I had scar tissue in my uterus which came up negative and I haven't seen him since then. Since I had two cycles where I had a lot of menstrual cramping and no AF I was a little worried and wanted for him to do an ultrasound and also wanted to hear his suggestion on how to minimize the endometriosis pain.  The visit went better than I expected.  He thinks I may have adenomyosis and he wanted to do an MRI and go from there.  He also suggested I try the Mirena for the pain.  I have never done well on any hormone treatment so far so I am hesitant to go that route but I have no other choice unless I go get everything removed.  The Mirena will put a stop to the possibility of a miracle baby but it has to be done.  I have heard a lot of horror stories about the Mirena but some swear by it for Endo pain management.  I am fighting with insurance to approve the MRI and we will go from   there.  I also got blood work done for LH, FSH and estradiol.  They were all within a normal range.  
The FSH is on the high side at 12.5 but seems expected for my age.  The day after the blood draw AF showed up after disappearing for two cycles.  It appears that I am ovulating but sometimes no AF.  I knew I was ovulating since I have mid cycle pain and also the usually hormonal shift.  

4. It has been 3years since I quit work.  I need to go back hence #3.  I am hoping the Mirena will work some.  In order for me to consider going back I need to control the pain, get rid of the migraine like headaches but most importantly kick the fatigue.  I assume that if we control the pain the other two will be resolved.  One thing is for sure, I will not go back and struggle as I did before having my baby.  I never want to go back to the daily agony of working while in pain and fatigued.  Just thinking about those days give me anxiety.

5. We are planning to visit DH's family in the winter.  It will at least be for a month.  Instead of being excited to be able to go and see my home country,  I am nervous.  I can deal with the pain some how but I don't know how I would deal with the fatigue and hormonal ups/downs.   The pycnogenol was helping a lot but after a while it started giving me stomach ache so I stopped it.   LDN helped some too but I can't tolerate taking it at night anymore.  I am going to try taking it during the day and see how I do.  Red clover tea has helped some too but not enough.  I want to be well prepared for the trip so we can all enjoy it.   After all escaping winter for a whole month is something to look forward too.

6. I love summer.  The extended daylight is just wonderful.  It is going so fast and we are enjoying it as much as possible.  My DH doesn't like hot weather so when it gets too hot he doesn't want to go out much but I tried to spend as much time on our deck as possible.