Monday, August 31, 2015

Life, big girl & chronic pain

How I love summer and it is slipping away too quickly and I am appreciating the warmth even on the hot muggy days.  At the beginning of the summer we went out shopping for a dining set for our deck but ended up buying a conversation sofa set.  Best decision ever.  Every morning I have my tea curled up on the sofa and soaking up the sun.  When the pelvic pain becomes too much  I just lay there watching my girl play with her water table.   My husband doesn't like the hot weather so he is usually out on the deck only at night but we have both been using it a lot so worth every penny we spent.

On other news my girl is turning 4 years old and over the last few months she has been so interested in actually playing and conversing with other kids.   My nieces and nephews are much older than her so she really doesn't have anyone to play with on a regular bases so we decided it is time to put her in part time daycare.  I found a place I liked that is reasonably priced.  We visited 3 daycares and I liked one the best but it was a little pricey.  I also felt they are too focused on learning and not enough on play.  A 4year old just needs a lot of play and I think kindergarten is enough to get them prepared for school.  So I picked a place that fits in a lot of play.  On the three days that she is home we will redo the alphabets with small letter recognition and may be start on teaching her how to read.  I also plan on continuing to teach her our native language.

This week she went to preschool for 2 hours just to see how she would manage.  Over the week we have been playing school with all her little dolls and talking about it.  So on Thursday morning I told her that she was going to her playgroup.  She was so excited and was dancing around and she also understood that mommy and daddy will drop her off and go home and come back later.  When we arrived at the preschool the kids were having circle time and as soon as we walked in the teacher asked her to hang up her backpack and sit with the kids and asked her name.  Wes snuck out after that
 and she didn't even look back.  She was so ready.  If DH wasn't with me I would have went home and cried. I was happy but felt a little sad.  She has never been away from me or my husband.   Instead we went for coffee and talked about our childhood :).  It just feels like yesterday when we brought  the 5 lb little baby.  When we went back to pick her up she was happy to see us.  Didn't get a chance to talk to her teachers since they were busy with getting the kids ready for lunch.  So next week she officially starts.  If it wasn't for the expense I would have liked to do four half days but didn't find an option that was not too expensive.

Of course I have to talk about my reproductive organs in ever post. After all my day is spent fighting the terrible pelvic pain.   The last few weeks my pain has been up the roof. The fatigue is much better and it is due to drinking Red clover leaf tea ever other day.  That staff really works, it also minimized the increased pain associated with follicular phase.  If I could I would drink it everyday but last time I did that my CM was no show so I try to not overdo it.  But this cycle It seem like my hormones have
normalized but that means more pain as endometrial implants respond to the increased hormone.  Well I think that is what's happening.  I am in so much pain that I have been sleeping on the floor for the last three nights.  It seem like the hard surface decreases the internal organs movement.  I feel that on the left side something has stuck to my colon.   I was suppose to do am MRI but insurance did not approve it and they want an ultrasound done before an MRI.  My doctor is joining another practice and his old office will not tell me where he is going.  They actually said he won't be seeing patients at his new position which is a lie.  When I saw him last he said he is joining another practice but has a non-compete agreement that is for a year so he is moving to my state so he can practice. So now I have to wait until his new information appears on the Internet.   Otherwise I will have to pick another doctor in his old practice.  The reason I went to him is because he is one of the better specialist on endometriosis.   The waiting is killing me.  I should stop the rumbling here.

1 comment:

  1. That is outrageous! I can't believe that they won't tell you how to find your doctor again. Ridiculous, and I'd be furious! I hope he reappears quickly and gets you right in for an ultrasound so that insurance will cover the MRI. What a horrible thing to have to wait that long while you're in pain! So sorry. Hoping the mirena can give you some relief.

    So glad you found a great place for your daughter and that she's loving it. That makes all the difference! Hopefully you can take some of that time to be alone and just try to heal a bit.