Quick Takes

1. We spent Christmas with DH's cousins. We have been going there ever year. I remember last year’s celebration where one of DH cousin brought her 2 month old baby to the party and how it stung to be childless year after year. So this year’s Christmas was emotionally for me. It was such a happy moment but also sad. Everyone dotted around baby MH and all the kids wanted to kiss her and she was the center of attention. However, the hosts of the party are infertile and have been trying for 10 years. All I can think of was what they’re going through. On the way back home I cried in the car just overwhelmed with sadness, I know all too well what she must be going through.

2. I am enjoying breastfeeding and gratefully that it finally worked. I figured out why baby MH suddenly started breastfeeding. I have given her the breast at least once or twice a day when she is not too hungry but she will nibble and spit it out because there were not much milk coming out and she didn't want to work at it. About three weeks ago I went to my doctor to ask for HC since I was feeling so down and anxious but my doctor suggested trying taking progesterone orally. The week I started the progesterone is when she started breastfeeding successfully. The progesterone helped a lot with my constant state of anxiety and I felt immediate relive. I guess this had an effect on the let down response. I went back to work a week ago so I still have to pump but it is so nice to breastfeed and I do it every chance I get. She loves it and I love looking down at her precious face. It has been such a bonding experience.

3. Going back to work was hard the first few days. I work close by so I come home to feed her/pump so it is not so bad. Plus my mother is taking care of her so I know she is in safe hands.
I wouldn't have minded staying another month or two with my baby especially since she now is breastfeeding but this will not be feasible unless I quit my job. In this economy getting a new job is not a guarantee so I have come to accept it and enjoy what I have.

4. We have been looking for a house and have not found anything we liked. We are very limited on location and there are not many houses on the market. Hopefully we will find something before the summer. We live on a 2nd floor apt and it is not very kid friendly.

5. I am praying for all of you who are still waiting, my heart aches for you. I hope and pray that 2012 it the year.